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2017-10-11 09:17 am

You will never be friends with strangers, and some people will always be strangers.

 In high school, you rarely took the first bus home. It was crowded, loud with chattering strangers, and reeked of wet socks. Instead, you usually waited for your friends to finish practice. Every Tuesday and Thursday, you went across the street to grab some food and stare at your homework.
 
The cafe was tiny and often full, but that day you're feeling particularly bold. The large table at the back was only half occupied by three younger boys, who didn't look like they are expecting anyone, so you politely asked to sit at the other end. Their effusive response surprised you; they genially apologized and cleared room for you, before returning to their conversation.
 
The boys were animated and articulate, and you worked very hard pretending to study as you eavesdrop. They were starting a band. You gathered that they were meeting for perhaps the first time, but they finished each other's sentences excitedly and joked like old friends. The boy recruited as a percussionist could only play the shaker, but he'd been playing around with some beats in GarageBand. Their keyboardist came in second in the local piano competition last year. Their singer already had a few song ideas.
 
You admired them. You were struggling enough with school, and can't imagine having the time and energy to do anything extracurricular. Your admiration gnawed on you, like envy.
 
They were there every Tuesday and Thursday for the rest of semester, and the cafe was always full except for their table, so you sat near them. After a couple weeks they seemed to expect you, sparing a second or two from their conversation to shoot you a smile in greeting. You smiled back, but you never talked to them, and they never spoke to you.
 
During winter exams, you were convinced you had a crush on one of them, because your friends pointed out that you must have. You weren't sure which one. You had a crisis for about a week. The one thing you were sure about was that you failed the chem final because you were so tired, so that had been a long week. The bubbly scandal of a romantic crisis, egged on by your friends, was a welcome reprieve.
 
You eventually concluded that you didn't have a crush on any of them. You didn't see them in the spring, anyway. Besides, what if that one guy *had* been gay?
 
You wonder about lives not lived. You wonder briefly, then forget.
 
It was a few days before spring exams, and everyone was antsy with the sweet scent of summer so near. Your class just got out of English, the teacher's tirade still ringing in your ears, and class change was almost over. You walked quickly, but not too quickly, because your next class was math. 
 
Down the hall, someone slammed their locker shut. You saw that it was one of the boys, the skinny one. He recognized you, and waved. You waved back. 
 
"Hey, haven't seen you in a while!" he said, and you stopped near him in confusion.
 
"Hey, yeah, been a while," you mumbled, or something to that effect. He was rummaging in one of his binders.
 
"Listen," he continued effusively, "I know we're not tight but I feel like you've sort of been part of our journey, you know? So I was wondering if you wanted to come to our gig on Sunday?"
 
For a brief moment, you saw this encounter branching, branching into infinity. You were frozen at the edge of time, paralyzed by the vastness of the future. 
 
"Sorry, I can't," you made yourself say. "I have an exam on Monday."
 
He grimaced in sympathy. "That's too bad. Here, have a flyer anyway." You took it from him. 
 
You don't remember if you read the flyer. You don't remember that exam or the weekend before it. You're not sure why you remember that last encounter.
 
Live life without regret, they say.
 
 
Ten years later, you are on a crowded train going home from work. There are more younger people, people your age, than usual on this train. They are on their way to a concert, and their enthusiasm catches at you, lightening a little of your exhaustion.
 
The chatter of a tambourine cuts through the noise, startling you fully awake, and everyone around you cheers. The tambourine sets up a lively rhythm, while guitars strum and people clap along. A voice lifts up in song, lyrics lost over the percussion, but beautiful when the melody cuts through.
 
It's hard to see through the press of people, but you think you can make out the general area of the performers. You imagine those boys from high school. You imagine briefly what it might have been like to know them now. You don't recall their names.
 
People keep singing the chorus after the last chord, and the performers are coaxed into a raucous encore. They are quite good at playing the crowd. You clap and laugh along with everyone else.
 
They hand out flyers, and you eventually obtain one and get a glimpse of them. At a glance, they look familiar, but you're not sure. The train pulls into the next station, and the car empties. You realize you had missed your stop by a good twenty minutes. When you finally get home, you realize you lost the flyer.
 
They are on the train again, the next day, this time as passengers. They might have always taken the same train as you. They do not look familiar, but they laugh and joke like old friends, like people you used to know.
 
Today work went relatively well, so you're feeling bold. You approach them, and tell them you liked their performance the night before. They are happily surprised, and thank you effusively. 
 
They have a gig next Sunday, at a pub just down the road from where you live, and they give you a flyer. You tell them you will go. You mean this sincerely.
 
You make small talk with them. Your taste in music only overlaps peripherally, with one of them: your co-worker occasionally listens to metal so you have a couple songs you like, and their singer was in a metal band in high school. You have nothing else in common. 
 
It's all right though; they have plenty of anecdotes to share, and you share a few of your own. You even learn a couple guitar chords. You feel happy and accomplished when you get home.
 
Life happens, and you do not go. You can't take that train anymore; you take a much later train to a different part of the city. There are many other things to regret, and you almost forget.
 
You have names and a flyer. You wonder how much you care. You wonder.
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2017-04-23 01:49 pm

We've Come to Ask You, written for the Sci-Fi London 48 Hour Flash Fiction Challenge 2017



WE'VE COME TO ASK YOU




Dialogue

It's a whole new dawn for all of us, the possibilities are endless [sic]

Science (optional)
Billions have a brain interface connected directly to the cloud, which a terrorist network has now hacked.



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2012-11-04 08:58 pm

A somewhat boring non-focussed writing session in lieu of nanowrimo

He had a haggard face, straight short hair, stocky build, not tall but he loomed a little over his pint of dark beer. He had usurped our usual table for a few weeks now, every Thursday night in the same dark wool sweater and quiet air. He never had company.

I watched him from my new window seat whenever I could not participate in my friends' conversation. Perhaps he was newly deposited here from some distant, cod-less shore. Perhaps he was released from a newly created ghost town, lost to a dwindling forest. Perhaps there was still crude oil staining his fingers. He wore a wedding band, silver, on his right hand.

Some weeks I wished it were not so uncertain to receive a warm reception from him, so that I might at least reclaim our table. But I like my window seat, so I didn't mind, really.

On Wednesdays, while the sun still shines golden in the afternoon hours, I go to the common room in the mathematics building. It is the only place near my residence with windows large enough to let the sunlight slant in across the room, and it is by far the best place to watch the sun set. It's usually not too hard to avoid the locals, though I usually find myself sneaking down the corridors anyway. On one such evening, I found the common room occupied by two people, one whom I recognized as my calculus professor from several years ago. The other I guessed was a student.

"You'll want the Griffiths for sure," said the professor to the student. "But I'm sure Valerie wouldn't mind you sitting in her lecture, if you let her know beforehand."

The student thanked him, and shuffled away. I winced at the scuffing of runners against wood, and this wince gave my presence away.

He smiled at me. "Good sunsets here, you know," he said.

"Yes," I said.

"Well, don't let me distract you from your ritual. I'll only be here for a few minutes longer." He shuffled his papers, took a sip from his mug, and poked at his laptop. Whatever he was drinking smelled of heavy spice and ginger. It lingered for a little while after he had swept up his things and left, the air sweet and rough in my throat until the sky was velvet blue.

The next day I was timidly peering through the only tea shop I knew, which was on a street full of interesting little shops and pubs and places to eat. I saw that man come into the shop, firmly jangling the door chime, pacing down the shelves, stopping with his hands in his pockets in front of a selection of herbal teas. I spied a determinatedly Christmassy corner of the shop, and followed my nose there. I was delighting in a stash of spiced teas when he said, "Excuse me."

"Agh," I said.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you. Could you be so good as to pass me a box of chai?"

I would have liked to speak with him, but there was nothing to say, so I passed him a box and he thanked me and left.

That night, and for a few weeks thereafter, a woman sat at that table in the pub. She had a sharp face softened by long curls, which were all up in a messy bun, and she sipped at a dark beer while tapping on a tablet. I haven't seen that man again.
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2012-10-07 02:18 pm

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It wasn't a pretty horse with a horn. It was a unicorn. Wild, fierce, with diamond hooves and teeth that could tear a dragon's throat out.

(tapestry - green, gold, red)
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2012-08-11 01:42 pm
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The Light Over the Ocean

One day she was pottering about on the west shore when a great roar enveloped her senses, low and chest rattling, then cold and harsh through her lungs, then a piercing ethereal scream that whispered away. She opened her eyes. She was kneeling. She looked up.

A star was ascending over the western ocean, so brilliantly white that it flashed blue and green on its edges.

The Magistrate was anchored at the southern pier; she would never run so fast in the rest of her life as she did that day, yet the shore seemed to lengthen and the seaweed seemed to stretch out and the trees clawed back at her arms and shirt and hair. The air in her chest felt rough and sharp as she pounded down the pier. The ropes were slimy, crusted to the mooring, and felt as heavy as a planet.

She leapt into the ship and set off. She didn't dare to look up until she was out of the harbour and into the western ocean.

The sky was clear. On her left, the sun shone bright and fierce.

She went back into the cabin, counted her supplies (a week's worth, thanks to Benedict), leafed through Christopher's maps, found Agnes' binoculars. There was mold creeping along the back wall but the cooler was sound. She hefted the spare life jacket, examined it, put it on. There was room to spread a map along the floor, and a red pastel lodged between the desk and the windowsill. She thought for a bit, and made a few marks and arrows on the map. One mark was on the mainland. The sunlight was pale gold across the bow when she went outside again. A fresh breeze chilled her a little, and she looked contemplative.

A white light leapt out of the horizon, riding a tail of velvet blue. It slowed, glittering like the first star of night, and faded from sight.

She looked back to the island. There were no seagulls.

She went into the cabin and started the motor.
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2012-06-24 12:42 pm

StatMech I: Entropy

An Oath of a consciousness that knows a little about entropy and reveres life

With the passing of each second, I acknowledge that the cost of life and the growth of its complexity is
energy; and a tax is paid in kind.
I vow, as a conscious wilful being with the power to manipulate the states of the things around me:
to encourage growth and ease pain
to preserve what grows and lives well in its own way
to change no object or creature unless its growth and life, or that of the system of which it is part, are
threatened
For while nothing I do can increase the total useful energy of the universe, I acknowledge that from the
increase in universal entropy, I can celebrate the diversity of life and its workings. It is by knowing and
having many possible mannerisms available to me that I choose these principles.
All these principles I swear to uphold to the exclusion of destructiveness and death
when it is right to do so
unto the end of the universe.


This is based around Diane Duane's “Wizard's Oath”, from her young adult fantasy series Young
Wizards. These wizards are granted magical power to fight 'entropy' and slow down the heat-death of
their universe.


Comments: "This was very interesting. At first I thought it was misguided, because in encouraging growth and focusing on living things you are at odds with the 'natural' flow of entropy (i.e. neglecting the impact that sustaining life -- lowering its own entropy -- has on increasing the entropy everywhere else). But it cuts to the heart of the matter in a side-long way that is insightful, so 10/10."
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2012-04-22 02:07 am
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(There's something about summery Saturdays that make me space out)

And then I dreamt I was something
with dry soft skin, ridged spine, knots under my shoulders,
my brain stumbles as I haul myself out of the water with arms too short.
A second time, while salt burns against my wings, I burst out.
I see, in the sky, sketched in white on blue porcelain
Jupiter.
I cry out. My voice warbles.
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2012-04-03 10:32 pm

I really really want to post this somewhere so someone will read it, but I don't want anyone to see

so I'll post it here. My critical pep talks/counseling sessions with my muse Mathematics sometimes take place in a neo-Victorian but otherwise non-specific setting.

“Your heart aches,” said It as I slouched in, all genteel in Its manner.

“And you would know,” I said, “having rejected me as your dedicate.”

“Ah,” said It, “This is regarding your status as my...mistress--”

“One of them.”

“--who has been promised to another--”

“--you were first choice--”

“--I was third when you were of age. As I told you, I will always return your affections in equal measure.” It shifted, and for once It was near to me. My heart was somewhat calmed again as I recalled some of It's basic lessons, though my brain was still rather disgruntled and distraught. “I will postulate that your application to the Provost for an allowance from the Guild of Magi was rejected. Am I correct?”

“It's a school for interdisciplinary studies now. Public institution.”

“Ah. But you still have a sponsor in the Guild, who is still willing to apprentice you, do you not?”

It's not an apprenticeship. I may be old compared to your dedicates but in the real world, apprenticeships are much later...”

“Has he been informed of your current status now?”

I sighed. “...I plan to. Just...not today. Why do you always pick the worst days to finally show up? Yesterday would have been a lot more helpful.”

“Yesterday you would have thrown something at me.”

I mean, just because I have a sponsor...People look for the money trail, you know? The fancy titles and awards. Your dedicates are readily visible, distinctive...blessed. Others are also handpicked. I am not your dedicate, and I have no name as an apprentice...I am one of your title-less mistresses, and it's not gonna move me up in life, you know? Our affections will not keep me from falling into mediocrity.”

I knew how it looked, though. I tell my muse I love It, and promise myself to another, and spend my time with other amusements.

I felt though, that as with every other time I pleaded for Its company, It was inclined to stay for a little while longer.

Perhaps I could persuade It to stay the night.


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2012-04-03 07:33 pm

Statistical Mechanics II: Bose-Einstein Condensate, a special extra cheesy presentation

I: INTRO

In the kingdom of Bosonia, where few humans have dared to explore, a wise and peaceful king had ruled. But the king had no heirs, and when he left, a cruel and evil warlock took the throne. Under his rule, someone from each village was captured and magically suspended in a deep, dark dungeon. The prisoners saw and heard no one, and they were forbidden to talk under pain of oblivion.

And day by day, their dungeon grew colder. They swam around to try to stay warm: first alone, then in clumps, huddling close together. But the closer they huddled, the more the evil warlock's curiosity grew, and he made the dungeon colder. Soon all the prisoners were huddled so close together that there was barely any space for them to move, and yet he made the dungeon grow still colder.

“Have mercy!” they cried. “Why do you torture us so?!”

But the more they suffered, the greater his powers grew...for he was...A PHYSICIST...DUN DUN DUN

 

 

II: WHERE HAVE ALL THE BOSONS GONE

But there's one thing evil warlocks don't know about the people of Bosonia: they can relax themselves and fit into the tiniest spaces. Now the warmest spot in the dungeon is on an old carpet covering the stone floor, where the overlord would sit and watch the prisoners' torture. And where is the last place an evil warlock would look for a prisoner? Under the carpet!

 

Quick, I think I hear the guards coming with more prisoners! Hide! Hide! If they can't see you they can't torture you anymore! Hide!

 

III: THE BIT WHERE HE FIGURES IT OUT

 

Oh no, the carpet is a magical flying carpet! Oh, we've given a physicist something UNEXPECTED! What have I done!

 

 

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2012-04-01 02:48 pm

Statistical Mechanics: Refridgerators - compare and contrast to engines

Cold Weather Blues

I had planned

A utopian reality

Sunny weather

Where air warmed adiabatically ruffles the heather

But errors haunt me all the time...

 

My central processor is bare, my tears vaporizing in the air

Windy weather

Every time my heart takes my breath outside of here and squeezes it together

Gets colder all the time

 

I connected my heart to draw in air from outside reality

But when my love took my heart and left, the air cooled dramatically

All I can do is wait til my love returns my heart to me

And I can program some more...

 

I know why

It's too warm up in the sky

Stormy weather

My math muse and I are together

Keeps rainin all the time

Keeps rainin all the time

 

(The classic "Stormy Weather" as sung by Etta James: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgdJjvWIlJg My prof recognized this song, therefore so should you!)

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2012-04-01 02:22 pm

Statistical Mechanics: Phonons - an excerpt

On the umpteenth night of her quest across the land of Topologica, she came unto the wastes of the Crystal Lattice. The light of her Blackbody Lamp shone steadily onto the undulating landscape. She took a step onto the roughly regular surface, and watched in veiled curiosity as her footstep rippled outward underneath the surface.

"Alright," she said into the warm dry air. "I can model the vibrations like a system of simple harmonic oscillators."

Heart pounding, she jumped onto the Lattice, and sighed with relief when nothing untoward happened. Off in the distance, the particles of the Lattice wiggled back and forth in the dimming lamplight.

"The vibrations can be quantized..?" she ventured. The Lattice continued to flicker where the light hit. She was silent, and then she burst out.

"All right, all right, I went to a talk on the history of superconductors and I didn't really understand it but these quantized vibrations work like bosons, like the light from my lamp if you wanted to count photons but photons are electromagnetic waves not vibrations of particles in a lattice in a fictional wasteland. Now, O Riddler, may I leave?" And she rolled her die...


[So our prof assigns a topic to read a few days in advance and describe briefly in few technical paragraphs or a creative medium of our choice. Creative pieces are usually marked much easier. Marks are deducted for excessive math vs English description. These can usually be pulled off in a couple hours at most. Comment: "Fun! Amazing you pulled this off @ the beginning of class! 10/10" Ironic considering that I've done all these previews half an hour before, if not during or after the class its due...]